Who am I that I should be vying for your touch?

[illusionofjoy]

I broke up with the girl yesterday morning. She called me up and canceled our Friday get-together, so I called her back and canceled on her permanently. These cancellations of her's had become chronic, sending me a meta-message much stronger than her verbalizations of "I care about you" and "I love you." She then returned my call and told me that she had lied about her reasons for canceling. She...lied...to...me...

If nothing else, I know where I stand on her list of priorities. Things are messy right now. Let's not chat about despair...

Comments

Re: Illusions of Civility

[illusion-of-joy.livejournal.com]

1 - yes, it was wrong to hit her where it hurt most. I do stupid and hurtful things when I'm upset.

2 - I have no audience. I write what I feel and if I'm juvenile for it, then so be it. As far as people not wanting to hear whining: if that is true, then why is "emo" such a hot trend and how did The Smiths sell any records?

3 - I don't know how to answer this one.

Re: Illusions of Civility

[masochistmonkey.livejournal.com]

for the record.. i completely disagree with kevin's point #2... that was just dumb