Tactfully deficient

[illusionofjoy]

As I was walking to WAIH this morning, I passed by one of my classmates who asked me if I was "going to fall asleep in class today."

"Of course," I replied with veiled sarcasm. It's not that I mean to fall asleep in any class - and certainly not while one of my classmates is making a presentation, however sometimes I can't help it. Given the heat index and the fact that my sleep patterns have been buggered for ages, there are times I can't escape. It's like a stalker at my back, I'm aware it's there, I know it's coming. I try to fight it - I try to escape. Sometimes I think I've won but then it overtakes me and I have no idea I've lost until I snap back to reality.

In any case, I am fully aware of my shortcomings. I need them neither highlighted nor made light of by others. In this case, it would appear that I will be continuing to feed the vending machine my dwindling cash resources in exchange for a caffeinated elixir.

Comments

[olivia.livejournal.com]

It's weird how I found your journal, just one thing leading to another...But, I'm so glad I did. Have you told your doctor about this falling asleep thing. GOD, you are so young. Don't waste your time and energy. Tell your doctor all of your complaints about sleeping...ALL of it, and do it NOW.. don't wait. You could have a sleeping disorder and that is treatable, but a not a lot of people know about it. You may have sleep apnea, or narcolepsy, or something else. You have a choice. You can live with it, or you can talk to your doctor about it. That's it. I'm just saying don't ignore it, because you *seem* healthy. Or everything is fine except for that one thing(the way you sleep, or don't) That one thing is something we spend one third of our life doing. It's very important and necessary to survival.
What you're talking about is something that definitely needs further attention, and if you snore...then, definitely.(even more definitely?)If you don't do something now, could be years from now you'll find out that something was wrong and you could have taken care of it, and you'll be kicking yourself in the ass.
Sorry for coming on so strong. That's just me.
I have apnea, and I fall asleep at work talking on the phone. I wake up and wonder who I'm on the phone with. I haven't been caught yet, but my employer knows about it, and I'm in the process of being treated for it, so soon I'll get a good nights rest. Someday soon. I can give you some links if you want.